Dan in Real Life

In the movie Dan's oldest daughter reminds me of myself most. She is always trying to keep her father in line like I do my mom. She is somewhat the peace keeper of the family trying to make sure things are happening for the best. Alot of the time though she feels as if her father doesnt want to let her grow up. It seems to her almost as if she is just like her younger sisters always getting treated like a little kid and having fewer opportunities than her friends. I understand this also my mom is the same way. Her worst fear is for something to happen to me so she shelters me and trys to protect me by not allowing me to do some of the normal things that other teenagers do. She has got alot better now though. Since we have started to look at colleges, she is starting to realize that I am growing up and she has to let me go at some point. It really is hard for single parents because their kids are all they have.
I am not really a big believer in love at first sight or falling in love in a short amount of time. It may be true that it can happen but for me no. I am definally one of those people who waits a long time to tell someone that I love them. The guy I have been with for almost 6 months I havent even told you I love you too. I mean no he may be away alot of the time, but still I'm not going to tell him I love him unless I truely mean it. I love you is not something I take lightly. It is 3 words that mean alot and can change alot in a relationship. It takes time to develop feelings that can equal up to those few words. I am one of those "jerks" I guess who wont say I love you back unless I really do. I mean I've had guys tell me they love me, but I know they were just saying that, so I either tell them, no you dont, or well thanks. I wont say it back. It may sound cold hearted, but I feel its more fair for me  to be honest with him than not and to just say the words back when they dont mean anything.
My favorite movie is A Walk To Remember by Nicolas Sparks. Me and my dad watched it as I grew up and I felt that it was the best love story of all time. The way they grew up together going to the same schools went to church together but came from complete different sides of the tracks. They learned though that what you dont understand is not always bad. Landon was a rebelious teenager growing up from a rough family of drinkers who's dad had left when he was younger. Jamie is a good pasters daughter who has been raised by her father after her mother died. She was very smart and tutored and was involved in the plays at school. Landon gets himself into trouble with some  kids at school and he dares a kid to jump off a ledge into a river that suprisingly wasnt that deep. The kid ends up getting badly injured and Landon gets the blame. He has to do community service through the school which consist of a school play and tutoring. That means he has to spend some time with Jamie. When he starts to struggle with his lines in the play he goes to Jamie for help and she gives it to him. Landon though started to treat her badly infront of his friends so she doesnt put up with it and he soon realizes he made a mistake. She told him not to fall in love with him but he thought it was a joke at the time. He slowly starts falling for her and helping her finish this mysterious bucket list she has made. When Landon's friends start making fun of her he finally stands up to them. The reason though that Jamie has a bucket list is she has Lukemia and only has so long to live. Landon takes the news badly and tries to get people to cure her, but they cant. So he helps her finish everything on the list including her number one getting married in the church her parents did.

Food Memory

In the typical family, Thanksgiving is always at a certain place at a certain time. Everyone brings a certain dish and the whole family gets to spend time together and look back on memories from previous years. Well as I grew up we never really had a set place to go. I never was to close to my family as a child, and my parents tried to keep me away from their negativity which they seemed to bring upon people. So many years it would just be me my mom and dad. My dad would make the dressing and the turkey and my mom would make all the sides, like the green bean casserole and sweet potatoes. But even as a little kid there is one job I had. We would always make our runs to the grocery store before we would cook that day, and my job was to get the rolls, and keep in mind this my favorite part of the whole dinner. I always was a carb girl, whether it was fresh bread or potato chips I still to this day will take carbs over sugar. We always would go to the same Price Cutter where in their bakery we could always count on the fresh baked rolls. They are sweet and flaky. They are perfect to put leftover turkey or ham on after thanksgiving if there are even any left.after my dad died we would go over to my friends for dinner, and they still would put us in charge for the bread. The tradition still hasent changed. Even though I may not have a huge tradition I still love the little things me and my mom always do together. Still to this day on thanksgiving we go to the same price cutter and get the same rolls. They are my favorite part of thanksgiving.

This is

This is it my life

The sweet smell of chlorine in the morning

Cold rush of adrinaline through my veins

Everything about it makes my life enjoyable

I find meaning

I feel comfort and peacefulness

Making myself get up early

Working hard and feeling the aches and pains

It is all worth it

Something I'm good at

Able to teach

The many years spent only can pay off in the future

Feeling the excitment in kids

Regressing to when I first learned

Everything was so much fun

It is different than anything else

It doesnt get worse as you get older but only better

You learn to live with the drama

I push forward to be a better me

I build strength

This is a huge part of who I am